When I played basketball, we would run a lot of sprints. We ran drills sometimes, but we did a lot of sprints. Someone on the team would screw up a play and coach would line us up on the line and have us run suicides until we’d feel sick. There’d always be one or two team members who couldn’t keep up so we’d run more to make up for them. Someone would curse because we were running so much, so we’d run more.
When we finally finished, there was a mass exodus to the doors of the gym where we’d walk outside in the winter cold, contemplate puking, breath deep, hack up a lung, spit it out, catch our breath, grab some water and start running drills again.
I remember the feeling that I was going to puke distinctly.
It was almost as if your body was way out in front of you and you were breathing in frantic attempt to catch up with it. You knew you didn’t have much left, but you were trying to do the best to keep your breathing up and your body to slow down so you could ‘sync them again. But that was a while ago…
I haven’t felt like that…like I was going to puke for a long time…until recently.
Everyday I’m Hustling?
As part of one of my goals for the December Impossible Challenge going on in the League right now, I wanted to go to CrossFit class 20 times. Over the last 2 months, I’ve jumped in with both feet to CrossFit. Before this, I had heard a lot about it, but never really done anything so I found a Milwaukee CrossFit gym and gave it a go.
If you don’t know exactly what CrossFit is, it’s basically a bunch of high-intensity workouts focused on cardio-focused heavy lifting and endurance. If you’re still confused, the super-simple version is you basically life a lot of heavy weights very fast, for an extended period of time.
I don’t think I’ve ever consistently wanted to puke so many times in my life.
The overall sessions are usually an hour and the actual workout of the day (WOD) only lasts 10-20 minutes, but I can’t remember the last time that I’ve ever wanted to puke so much as the last two months of CrossFit.
But, that’s a good thing. I know when I have that puking feeling that I’m laying it all out on the line and I’m not holding anything back.
In a sick way, I think I like that pain. It reminds me that I’m human. That I’m alive and privileged to feel pain (this is a weird thing to feel thankful for, but think of all the people who can’t feel anything and you’ll start to realize why I’m grateful). It reminds me that I’m at the edge of my limits. And somehow I’m able to go further than I think I can…sometimes.
I’m never perfect. There are some points where my mind doesn’t think I can keep going – so I stop. There’s not a much worse feeling than being done at the end of a workout and realizing that I could have done more. That I could have pushed myself farther. That I still had something left. That I cheated myself.
Are you cheating yourself?
When’s the last time you wanted something so hard you were about ready to vomit? Sorry if that’s a disgusting picture to put in your mind, but when was the last time you worked so hard on something that you wanted to puke?
Personally, it’s really easy to say “I worked hard” or “I put a lot into it” but if I’m honest with myself, a lot of the time that even the things I put a lot of really hard work into, I don’t go all out. I’m telling myself those phrases to convince myself I went hard enough. But inside I know the truth. I know I still have something left. I know I lost an opportunity to get better. I know I’m cheating. I know, ’cause at the end I don’t quite feel like puking.
- When’s the last time you worked on your business so hard you wanted to vomit?
- Whens’ the last time you made a decision that made you feel naseous?
- When’s the last time you wrote something will so much passion that it made you sick to publish it?
When’s the last time you worked so hard at something you felt like puking? If it’s been a while, why are you cheating yourself?
I posted this a while back on my posterous site, but I think it fits in really well with this post. Just try to watch this and not run through a brick wall immediately afterwards.
How bad do you want it?
When you want to succeed as bad as you want to breathe, then you’ll be successful.
I’ve been getting message from a few people who still don’t know about Impossible HQ. How has this happened? Go over and check it out if you haven’t realdy. Going forward, I’ll be making a few changes to the network of sites to make them better connected and easier to navigate between.
I’ve got something pretty cool up my sleeve for you guys. It’ll be available next Tuesday for free, but people subscribed via email will get a sneak peek this weekend. Thanks for being awesome. Have some eggnog this weekend and Merry Freaking Christmas :).